Weblog Entry - 03/11/2003: "Long Thing about Not So Exciting Shet"

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03/11/2003 Entry: "Long Thing about Not So Exciting Shet"

superseth Long Thing about Not So Exciting Shet:
So it has been a long time since i posted..... I meant to but didn't. Today has been a strange day, It began well and carried a good theme throughout, but as was foreshaowed by my running out of cd's and having to listen to rap in the car, things just had a strange undertone. I did not space out in physics and yet still could not answer any questions when called upon. Whatever it is, something under the surface felt wrong all day to me, including me, who I have become frusterated with as of late. I wish I could just be as I am instead of acting, but I do, and always have. As I rode home today from physics study action, I decided that I spent the begining of my life trying to be as little a kid as possible, and now I am trying to be as little an adult as possible, at least in my presentation of myself. Sure sometimes I act like im 18, but really I seem to pass myself off as a simple strange idiot that I know I am not and I am not pleased with. Still I persist in acting like that though.
And another note, when did it become so hard to find things exciting to do? I remember finding solace in so many different and productive adventures and inventions, why have I let my mind and energy fall into a rut of nothing??????? I am so ficking boring, I want to sleep just thinking of me.

Posted by superseth @ 10:01 PM PST

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Replies: 5 comments

We all have our worthless moments; some more than others and some hurt more than others. But as u have been doing we just go on...sometimes there appears to be no reason or no goal or just nothing...yet u travel on. I live day to day as well...if i focus on what is happening and not what isn't or what i'd rather or what is missing life is not the same. But to what u posted upon i can seriously relate...if u continue to feel this way my advice to u is to just try something different, or something u have not done in a very long time. u sound lost seth; which is no big deal because nobody knows who they are at 18 and if they do they are mislead.

Posted by Kyle @ 03/13/2003 11:21 PM PST

you would think being on aim all day would satisfy your desires, but its not as fun when everyone is away or watching tv...lately yes i have been addicted to ddr, but its the freaks that always have funny stuff to play, the atmosphere is okay, besides Johndoe screaming at the top of his lungs just because he missed one of those "fruit" arrows,them kids are pretty damn entertaining, oh my!! even the devil has a craving for it haha noel is ko0l. well i speak in behalf of myself its fun, i dont care, im openminded to just about everything :)....EVEN DIAK!!!! YAYAYAYAY hahaha peace out fools and if i spelllled somethang wrong, ya'll Kan Kizz Muh AUSSS

Posted by vegan @ 03/13/2003 01:29 PM PST

I know for me atleast, my abilitiy to find simple entertainment died when my creativity died in second grade. The cause? I got a computer. I dont think this is the same problem you have though Seth.

Posted by Newt Buggs @ 03/12/2003 05:21 PM PST

Dude, without you there would be no mocha, that place is the best and it's definitely because your there.

Posted by JSG @ 03/12/2003 03:23 PM PST

I like you sethy. You are not boring. You are fun and interesting and intelligent. And you make me laugh a lot. Sethy was in an odd mood today. It made me sad. I would go on, but I think you know the things I am going to say anyhow. Or at least you should know them :)

Posted by sarah @ 03/11/2003 10:16 PM PST